wow
life
truly hard to predict
moments
that blow you away
difficult to grasp
unclear
but...
somewhere
in there
you already knew
other moments
nano-second thoughts
an "off" feel
absence
eye contact
that sixth sense
all led
to that "blow away" moment
of which
was "already known"
without
really knowing

a journal entry
lies the only proof
words written
on
a
day
two months ago
where enormous
pain
was cast
upon the subject
of this entry
but...
you didn't know
then
eerie, it could be
if
you didn't understand
or believe
the true gift
of connection
or what it is
to be mate
of another soul

wow
today
on so many levels
but...
my heart pours forth
in sadness
with love
to this news
just learned
but...
somehow,
already known
in a place
unspoken

January went first ... Now February gone too

Don't take my writing

my heart, my soul

Give back the words

to swirl and twirl

Wanna dance, wanna dance

oh, I wanna dance again, so bad

 

~01/22/13~

 

Annoying snow on my day off

White coverage, not enough for a plow

Car troubles leave me to tremble

A prayer a minute to get me to the next

I could feel sorry, drown in self pity

Yes there are days I do just that

Yet there's a strength that pulls me through

Too much TV, who would have thought

Life flying by, feeling not a part

Not quite sure how to jump start

My heart's getting cold, heading towards stone

That places panic in many of my days

Incredible stupidity I have previously displayed

Tears at that fills moments in my days

Security of my life, the form of man

Absent now for the last quarter of year

Who am I, where the hell do I go

What do I take with me and what to leave behind

Something needy in me sometimes resides

A partner in life, a friend for comfort and strife

So much to share; God show me the way

Let the lack of money not control my days

Remind me of pride; let it trickle back to me

Let me hold up my head; let light shine again in my eyes

Let my smile return, beauty fill my days

Fill me with words

And amazing creativity

Drive me, drive me

Shine me with the inspiration gifted me

Let me fill up on my Danny

My Shannon

My Brendan

My Shane

The glory of motherhood brightens my days!

 

~01/22/13~

 

What another moon!

Full and air so cold!

An oblong cloud hovers just below

A smiling sight

as I catch it through the blinds

Then outdoors I go

to see it full

Life revives!!  :)

 

~01/26/13~

 

Tweeting birds when I opened the door!

Their sound exploded and gave me smile!

Warm today, they came out to play

Mid-winter bird sound loves the soul

 

~01/28/13~

 

I saw you today; your back to me

As I walked by

Inside the doors at work; you on the phone

I walked by to smoke my cig

Later, I heard a customer saw a man

shove a gun into his back waistband

I'm thinking that's why you were there

 

I miss you still; (those months engraved

forever in my heart, my mind, my soul)

Thank you for the protection; even though

we didn't even really know

I still wait. . . a text . . . a call

they do not come

Do you ever think of me; any part of you

"miss" me? . . . for real

 

Every once in a while, a single tear,

maybe two, escape my eyes

because it just happens that I immerse myself in you

 

I try to believe that when you see me,

this same thing,

or a version of, happens to you

 

So still, my heart belongs to you

even as I begin to tug it ever so gently

away from you

 

And when there might be glimpses of you

it's the hardest . . .

to try to forget about you

 

Foolish? Silly?

Still in love

with the fantastic idea of you

 

~01/29/13~

 

M O M   P R O M!!!

Beautiful

And last one;

Thank you for the dance(s),

my last wonderful son! ! !

 

~02/04/13~

 

My Haiku Day . . .

 

~Sun pouring through blinds

makes opening my green eyes

a pure blissful day!

 

~Sounds of a day off

dishwasher, washing machine

hum in unison

 

~My days with NETFLIX

as wasteful as they may seem

relax, re-charge me

 

~Just as day gets good

Yet another curve ball throws

So tired of dodging

 

~One day almost good

then moment explodes the peace

up against the wall

 

~Could totally use

a new importance in life

someone to love me

 

~Wanna feel that feel

to love, be loved, butterflies

to be a half of

 

...really, really just wanna

 

~02/05/13~

 

up and down, up and down

my days, my life

daylight fading now

sky soon to be black

nightfall; midnight;

then day comes again

 

~02/09/13~

 

La Casa dinner tonight . . . all kids

and two girl/boyfriends!

Family growing and it makes

my smiling heart proud

Birthday dinners, oldest and youngest,

life's greatest accomplishment

IS BEING A MOM! !

 

Time spent with them all at once

is a treasure I cherish

in the time to the next

 

~02/10/13~

 

Like a spring day ... full sunshine

fills this house, heart and soul of mine

What there is to do even sparkles

as motivation and inspiration

replace the heaviness inside

 

~02/12/13~

 

Birds confused . . . reflected in their song;

scrambled; loud; nothing unison about it;

all singing out of tune.

 

Weather returning to winter . . . snow days coming our way;

cold; bluster; sky full of grey;

nothing pretty or comforting about it.

 

Flying crazy . . . disengaged;

one for all; no pattern; just fly; no understanding

how perceived spring falls back to winter's cold and blow

 

~02/18/13~

 

Sun tries desperately to make appearance

Squeezing through grey, but grey pushes back

Yet there is a shining/reflection off white of snow

Take me through this day; let it all ebb and flow

 

~02/25/13~

 

Sometimes I absolutely love the quiet moments I linger in the chair once the TV/noise goes off and all the lights are out . . . but candles flicker their flame.  I can hear the world outside . . . the wind blowing and my chimes chiming.  And I wonder . . . how many other people in the world are still awake . . . and then, is there anyone, anywhere, out there that has thought of me today . . . and if so, I pray there was a smile upon their face.  And if so, I hope for some tiny moment in time they danced with me.

 

~02/27/13~

 

~ Dances With Terri ~

I believe in Valentine's Day ... and always will

V  alentine's Day . . .

A  lways acknowledge and anticipate

L  avish in love and laughter

E  engage and emphasize embellishment

N  arrate your nature and nature with naivety

T  rust time thoughtfully and thankfully

I  gnite imagination and illuminate your identity

N  estle, nurture, and nourish nuclear needs

E  scort your essence and essential esteem


Happy Valentine's Day!!

Love,
~ Dances with Terri 02/14/13 ~

dance, dance, dance

you have

you can

you will

way too long since i have been here
way too long since i have felt

time to take back ... take charge
give spark to my dance

no one to dance with?
just dance Ter, and they will come

... goodness will come

 

"In the moment we are born we're drawn to form a union with others ...

an abiding drive to connect ...

to love ...

to belong."

 

from Revenge, episode airing 2/10/13

 

 

~a jumpstart!

Dance Ter, Dance

02/11/13



EUREKA!

Cruising Eureka Springs in a Murano - top down!
Spectacular foilage graced streets and hills
Autumn's dance, like no other
Tourists & residents danced together
Joyful, hometown-feel treasure
Where the springs run deep
In this Ozark mountain culture
Bikers too, filled the streets and taverns
Cruising by, they danced like feathers
Soulful cruising heals the wounds
Peace pours forth in passion found
Eureka Springs, you filled a space
That longing knows is saved for great
The dance was perfect on that Sunday drive
Re-igniting a crave for life, outside of mine

. . . . . . . . . . .

Cycles lined the row
empowered presence is the story it told
to some, it releases a fear
to me, it releases a freedom sheer
 . . . a dance, where the road is clear
my heart reacts to this scene
       over and over
expanding and pounding
as it longs to be a part of

"Genuine Harley" refers
to both bike and rider

~ Dancing With Terri  10/23/12 ~

Gold To The Soul ...

Back home, a level of restlessness settles in my bones...

The drives through the hills
the beauty of fall everywhere
filled ever pore of my being
The cycles,
Harleys and Hogs,
created want flowing through my blood...


Twisting, turning . . . crimsons and scarlets
Upwards, downwards . . . winds carry the fallen
Dancing, prancing in their fate of glory

Beautiful here on this top down drive
Cattle roam . . . then the magical hills
Color bursting on flat and dome

Scarlet red, Crimson gold
Peach parfait, Tanning bronze
Pumpkin orange, Amber blast

Senses purring, all drama lost
Heart responds to thoughts forgot
Settles in what counts the most

Keep me here; this wonderous state
Where fog lifts; the dance is straight
Reality escapes; the soul is driven

Dancing tingles; pleasure delights
Swirling, twirling; kaleidescope sights
Respectful honor what is gold to the soul

~ Dances With Terri  10/23/12 ~