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A Scorpio, I am. Sign of water/sexuality. Emotion. Myers/Briggs personality test resulted INTF (Introvert, Intuition, Feeling, Perceiving) 100% accurate! Only 1% of the world pop. has this personality type; the other 99% has trouble relating to INTF's! I am extremely introverted, can handle noise/crowds for exactly 1 hour before retreating to the quiet or my music somewhere. Oddly enough, I am drawn to customer service. I know these things: I love who I am! I love emotion. I am vulnerable. I care deeply. I love. And I love deeply. I will wait it out for return. I long to be loved. My children are my world. Nature is my solace, my constant, my peace. I hear each bird's tweet, adore shapes in the clouds, share the moon with everyone I know, smile at the song of my windchimes, wonder at the growth of a flower, drive to chase sunsets, enjoy a great storm, relax fully when the ocean is outside my door. My favorite word is dance. Dance represents how I strive to live..to a beat that allows my body and soul to release in rhythm. I am over 50 now. Dance with me ... while there is still time!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Inspired by texts on Monday ...

The One Thing I Completely Believe In

Three am ... wide awake
Maybe, just maybe
This year’s gonna be okay!
2011, February 8th
Today was Shane’s 16th birthday!
2015 ... he’ll be twenty

Hmmmm, wonder where I’ll be in 2015
Will I have love?
Share life with someone?
Quit settling for just some things
And not all?
During that year, I will become 55

And then will come 60
Why do I smile :) at that sound??
Shane will be 25, Danny 32
Brendan and Shannon in between
............
Because I know what I feel for you now
I will still feel then

Is it possible
That I have dreamed you
To be something that is not?

No. Funny, you’re the one thing I completely believe in
With no effort at all
Not a doubt in my mind or heart
Never once a question of
Where did you come from
Beginning day one, I (we) belonged

I didn’t look at it exactly that way
On day one
But I do know, that the moment you stopped at my kiosk
(on day one)
My world made sense
Peace, completely settled over me

When I looked into those eyes
That moment, I felt I belonged
I knew you’d be back
I connected with something
As never before
Total SECURITY ... I felt “at home”

In the midst of “crisis”
My soul was consumed
You entered with natural flow
I didn’t even “feel” it happen
In one moment, you were just implanted
... as if always having been there

In the days, weeks that followed
I fell in love ... as did you

It’s a love
Difficult for many to understand
A love
Incredibly, meant to be
As often as that is said,
THIS one truly, really is

No matter what a day brings
You are there ... inside me
No matter the insecurity that surrounds me
You are there ... securing me
Every day, I draw from you
The inside of me, where I love you
........ the only place, where I am whole

No, I have not just dreamed you
Because you are still here
Always here
What I feel for you makes me whole
It joins my physical with my spiritual
In a way that puts me at ease ... in balance ... at peace

In the “absence” of you
Sure, I sometimes wonder if you feel this too
Then I tear up, yet feel so strong
And I understand that yes, yes you do

Almost 5 am now ... and you are miles down the road
As every day, and unknowing that I sit to write to you
Yet, I feel so close to you
As if I could reach out and touch you
And you would know ...
I don’t imagine your whisper, I hear it

And I thank God every day that you walked down that aisle


02-08-11 ~ Terri ~ Always

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