Weakness comes .. though beauty sets me straight

Oh God of such magnificent beauty
Hear my prayer of healing ...
Heal my heart of all the losses
Help me cope with such terrific loneliness
Show me strength amidst the multitude of aloneness
Surely there is clarity to be found
In what feels darkness of being alone
People come ... but seem to always leave
Children, growing ... come home for a bit
Then leave ... as they should
Yet my heart breaks in the quietness that follows
And the traces of their life left behind
How does my nurturing heart
Go about finding human replenishment
When it seems all that I give love too
... Leave me behind ... as if I never was
I long to hear that there are some who miss me
How crazy is that ... longing to just be missed

I am so grateful for Your beauty
I am largely appreciative of the gifts
You have bestowed upon me ... that my heart is so open
A sponge, willing and able to soak up ... absorb
To truly see Your world in all if its splendor
And I do THANK YOU for this!
Please let me find the "fuel" to move forward
... to transcend my moments of weakness
When there is so little humanness ... contact ... one on one love
Please wrap yourself around me
So that I may know the comfort
And the "security" of attachment to some one
Dear God, heal my lonely heart ...
Remind me what it is to feel loved
And not so all alone ~Amen, with my love

P.S. ~ Your heaven's delighted me this very early morn
Your sky so transparent...the stars alight
As I pulled back up to the place I have tried to make home
Your moon bright in its crescent shape
Yet shadowing it full
If not for Your world so beautiful to delight
I would find it harder to understand my plight