09/19/11 … Some days you wake up to a day where the outside seems so perfect … so relaxed … the outside world takes you back to a child-like state … for a moment, you forget that you are adult with numerous (and sometimes overwhelming) responsibilities … and then it hits you … a solid, breathtaking punch … you gasp for air … as the list of things you have to do or the bills that must be paid, (some that have been procrastinated and are now at deadline or even over-due), or things you are responsible for but aren’t sure how to do, all play like movie credits in your head … over and over.  And you become a little agitated at the solitude portrayed outside as the perfect day.  Today, I wish I was a child again.  I would find a swing to swing on without a care in the world.  Today, I am overwhelmed with being an adult and the weather outside just does not seem to fit into my reality.  Everything seems surreal and un-balanced. Today, it would be nice to be held and told that everything is going to be okay.