Oh Christmas Tree

Up!  And beautiful to me, again
Of course I have ornaments of hearts
There must be at least one to symbolize each time I have given mine away
And plenty more, for whatever lies in store
Maybe one day ... one will be brought to me
To add to my Christmas tree
My every Christmas wish involves a special green one
That it may come back around to me

This time of year brings many things
Wishes, Hopes, Joy and Remebrances
Christmas' past ... near and far
In one thought, aging seems irrelevant
In the next, how many more will there be
Will I put up this tree alone for however many are left
Will there be young children again
To gather around this tree

I'm feelin' something this year ...
Not sure what it is / something nudging me
Make it special Ter / change it up
Add some pizazz / tradition with something new
My heart is calling to me
And I'm hoping to find clarity
I'm listening, waiting to understand
To ensure my family's Christmas grand

Too many changes and sacrifices in the eight years last
I'm feelin' something this year ...
Make up time for what a man stole from me (us)
Fill the void of a brother (and family) lost
Find a way to heal all my mother's pain
Ensure my father knows I (we) will be okay
And pass on to him our sincere gratefulness
Keep my children at home on Christmas and Christmas Eve

Oh, Christmas Tree!  Speak to me
Your lighted beauty has always mesmerized me
At the end of every day, your sparkle quiets me
Fill me with grace and inspire me
Induce great spark to ignite something creative
Fuel these nudges ... show me
What star can I add to this Christmas 2011
To make laughter brighter

The hearts on the tree are for all to see
Just as the ones I wear on my sleeve
There's a green one with special meaning to me
..........And somewhere out there, is a match to mine
Oh, Christmas Tree
You are fine with such shine

~ Dances With Terri - 12/02/11 ~