In love with my restlessness

Yes, words are incredible

in just one day, how many

through my mind

they do swirl

not always

an easy, gentle twirl

Believe it or not

these days

are my favorite

as through their process

i do trust

to bring me fullness

to the place inside

where i truly rest

A few days ago, those words I wrote.  In many of my writings there is a feel of "restlessness" where I am "twirling" and "swirling".  I have come to understand that I am to let that swirling take over and land me right where I am to be.  Years ago, I would have become frustrated and telling myself that something is "wrong".   But then I accepted...and learned to love this most about me!  Swirl and Twirl, never knowing where it is I will land!!

This week I picked up a book that I had started back in 2005, but never finished.  Walking In This World ~ The Practical Art of Creativity by Julia Cameron, who is also the author of The Artist's Way.  I believe the Universe gives what it is you need, at the time you need it, if you are open. 

As I have in many, many of my books, I furiously highlighted and wrote in the margins alongside my nightly reading.  (One day, ones who care about me will pick up some of my reading selections and read through my heart and soul, and finally understand!)  Tonight's chapter has been on the creative person's "restlessness" and why it comes.  

"Restlessness means you are on the march creatively.  The problem is, you may not know where."  There have been soooooo many words in this chapter that I use consistently in my writing.  Words, such as magic, intuitive, mysterious, callings, destiny, inspiration, craving, longing, path. . .

It has been a colorful and magic hour of reading!  I have to share Julia Cameron's last paragraph in this enlightening chapter:

"When we acknowledge the right of mystery to intercept and direct us, we acknowledge the larger issue that life is a spiritual dance and that our unseen partner has steps to teach us if we will allow ourselves to be led.  The next time you are restless, remind yourself it is the universe asking "Shall we dance?" 

As the world outside blanketed itself with the first snow of the season today, I sat by the fire and read ... and I danced.