When I had to leave
I touched my hand to my lips
Then brought it to yours
For a moment, brief as it was
I saw in your eyes
   a puppy dog look
As if,
   If only you could . . .
            you would do anything in the world for me
               including,
                  loving me till death


There is no one
   whom I have ever loved as this <3

         Quietely,
               Silently,
                     it hurts
                           While it fills me so deep

                                       ~ Dances With Terri 02/12/12 ~

That's right.

Exactly right.

My heart was never fuller, than with you.

because of you.

My soul, never more at peace, than with you.

because of you.

My life meaningful, bright, absorbant to shock

carefree

captivating

secure

~ Dances With Terri 03/18/12 ~

@ times, a friend will ask

"doesn't it hurt more to talk with him after so long an absence"

the answer is not so complicated, if you are me

maybe difficult to understand, if you are the world outside of me

falling for him, was falling with him

slow motion, together, simultaneously, beat to beat

it wasn't talked about, or expected

it came so out of nowhere

if you have ever looked into someone's eyes and seen completeness

a whole ... the truth ... the other half of yourself

then one could understand

if you have ever looked into someone while talking

and experienced a total body "at ease" ...

a peace and a feeling as if having "come home"

then one could understand

like that moment of sighting a rainbow ... magical

like that moment of the first seasonal motorcycle ride ... freedom / exhilaration

like that moment of waking to ocean's music ... peaceful

like that moment of swirling purples and pinks in a sunset ... captivating
like that moment of kneeling before your God ... lifting
like that moment of a child's wonder on Christmas morn ... belief / mystical

like that moment of reaching mountaintop's summit ... triumph / fulfillment

like that moment of Spring's first showing or Autumn's first falling ... renewal / positive change 

and winter's very first snowfall during the night ... quiet and serene

like that moment of holding your just born child ... miraculous / unseverable connection

like that moment of Snow White waking with her prince's kiss ... existence

like that moment the rising moon appears bigger than normal shaded in translucent pink

   as if someone painted it for only your eyes ... indescribable unless you have seen it

falling for him, was falling with him

slow motion, together, simultaneously, beat to beat

it wasn't talked about, or expected

it came so out of nowhere

if you have ever looked into someone's eyes and seen completeness

a whole ... the truth ... the other half of yourself

then one could understand

if you have ever looked into someone while talking

and experienced a total body "at ease" ...

a peace and a feeling as if having "come home"

then one could understand

i have seen love and felt love in many special places

and on varied connecting, basic SINGLE structures

but only once have i talked with a stranger

for 10 minutes

and been blown away with a knowing settling over me

that love takes and gives more than your heart

it takes you home ... to a place that connects the heart to the soul

yours to another's

without words

connection that cannot be described with words

as if this person completes the all of you

fills in all that was missing

makes the puzzle whole

so that there is not a single question of why you are here

as if you have always known this person

from time's existence

so to my friends that may ask,

i have found that whole love

... it is just that i cannot share it all with you

~ Dances With Terri 10/13/11 ~

(still, words are not easy to describe what i have found in the love i carry in my heart and the way mine beats in his every day ... it is this way, i suppose, because of the circumstances involving this love ... in a world that mandates certain principles, our love is forbidden ... though, we have done nothing to be shameful of ... love was brought and given to us in the most magical and unexpected of ways ... a puzzle made whole ... soul dancing with soul ... purified security, natural and sure)